Shadows and Shades-----> two shades of life

Memories

2009-11-29T19:18:00.000-08:00

Has life shrunk so soon? Seasons changing from spring to autumn!
Some pictures etched on my heart and some forgotten!
In a blink of an eye - an eternity .... in the winds all moments blown!
Each memory has a different hue! How ... oh how time has flown!

These special moments I’ve cherished and prized –
On my heart’s window they are poised.
Will I let them fly and add, to my heart, another stone,
Or should I hold on to them, so I’m never alone!

Opened a box today .... of forgotten smiles,
Of broken hearts and separating miles –
Of coffee warm kisses and cinnamon flavours,
The colours and textures, my heart still savours!

Of honey warm dreams kept on hold –
Of red fiery tastes – entrancing and bold!
Of captivating enchantment and violet vivaciousness,
Of soft soothing sunlight and a pocket full of happiness!

My tree now sees autumn – the yellow, red, russet and brown –
My memories, my treasure, my legacy, my crown!
Sunny rays stream cleansing my soul and moments grieved -
I look at a heart full of soft memories and a life well lived!

When I Fall Apart

2009-11-29T19:14:00.000-08:00

She is my world, She made me fly,
She is not the reason now I cry.
We made vows and promises a day.
Tell me, will she go away?

I knew she loved someone before,
I knew She's everything I live for.
I mended the pieces of her,
I never knew what will occur..

And then it began, our love tale.
I said it was her I inhale.
She said She loves us and me.
I said I lover her endlessly.

Beautiful and green, memories those,
Now I shake as the wind blows.
Shattered, the dreams I had.
Why did it end so sad?

She got with her first love,
She just didn't know how.
She wanted me too, by her side,
Never said her, I cried!

I need him now, my love told.
Love for you, I still hold.
I might come as yours one day,
Till then, my friend, stay!

And then it ended, our love tale.
Its sullen breathe, I exhale.
She might come or She might not,
I'll just cling to the life I got.

I just want to think her in my heart,
When I die, When I fall apart.
She's everything I'll ever miss,
If you see her, tell her this!

nostalgia

2009-11-29T18:49:00.000-08:00

I loved like moth circling the flame,
yes , i destroyed myself...
But still i love you hopelessly..
and i am in nostalgia of yourself...

years back when i was kid..
walking on the sand with you
with waves washing our feet
and the way u caressed my hairs
it made me feel so real.

Even today i go to that place...
and when wet breeze greets me.
in the sand i see your face...
Yes even today i love you hopelessly..
and i am in nostalgia of yourself

i crave for those times past,
a frozen bunch of moments dropped
from a dead tree as berries-

Sweet they taste, of love and light
safety and love as I am flung from the precipice
into a maelstrom of sensation:
a utter feeling of desolation...

Lying close, feeling your breath on my skin
feeling them move inside, to whisper,
your kiss used to take me in
to be truly joined, heart and soul

Sitting on the heap of broen dreams facing eternity
watching the waves undulate towards shore,
And my friends tell me "Move on she is no more"

The past has died, even now the present is cooling,
all that is left is tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.
Always before, the spring returned.
The bright world in its cycle spun In air and flowers, grass and fern.
Assured and cradled by the sun.
Always before, you could explain
The turning darkness of the earth,
And how that dark embraced the rain.
And gave the ferns and flowers birth.

Already I forget those things.
And how a vein of gold survives
The mining of a thousand springs,
The seasons of a thousand lives.
Now winter is my memory,
Now autumn, now the summer light-
So every spring from now will be
Another season into night.

First Love

2009-10-02T04:47:00.000-07:00

in the dizziest moment of my life,
u came in like a careless whisper,
like a dewdrop on a blade of grass,
your love is clung to my heart,

like the fragrance that first rainfall brings,
i am feeling like u are my angel wings,
no matter how tumoultous time may get,
i will preffer dying rather than seeing your eyes wet,

moon is shining in a sky with little stars,
and we are holding hands on a cliff so far,
two bodies might we be but our soul is one,
i am ready to fall apart in your arms,

autumn is in the air ,leaves carpet the ground,
waiting for those springs again tears are falling without a sound.
preserving the undeserving love in you i found

like the pureness of mountain waters,
and the solace of clear blue skies,
like the joy which befalls us on first ray of light,
first kiss of dewdrops in the winters
like little flakes on snow which fall from so high,
i want to be entangled in u rest of my life

I miss y0u

2009-10-02T04:45:00.000-07:00

i miss you
Sky is So Azure,
How will i Define?
My Soul Digs Through Sand of time…
Searching for your Signs…

Rain falls on my Guilt,
I Live Through All My Sins…
But The Memory of Your Voice…
help be Rejoice….
bt i still miss you….

Those Days when you wer in my life,
Evryday was a Delight….
Sunny day’s and Full Moon’s night
those days were full of light…

Sun looks like Orange Fruit…
Soon it will Sink In The Ocean….
this Vast ocean is standing still
displaying it’s immense patience

Now Darkness Spread it’s wing,
All the nocturnal species now sing,
Past now echoes on me…
Silence inside me now rings…

Moon spread it’s light…
on the Water’s below ..And Sky so high….
A Biting Chill Now Sets In The Atmosphere…
And i wish you were here….
many seasons are now passed
bt i still miss you..

A Numbness used to Set iN the air,
and moonlight shined on your hair…
Winds murmured a gentle prayer…
and i used to hold you close with Care..

How i used to get lost in the depth of your eyes…
And all the fights were bunch of lies…

Days of Bliss Flied away..
my faith in god now sways..
last rays of hope bid me goodbye…
as the creepers of pain mummify my love for you to rest…

my vision is blurred wid tears filled in my eyes…
emptiness inside me fills the sky
all the stars are awake wid me..
with me now they cry….

Meet my other side

2009-10-02T04:39:00.000-07:00

deja vu,again my mind is in soup
glocking the oppresors.
with che guevara in a coup…

as i swallow the pills..
my darker side is outta on a kill,
hallucinating i become a satanic king…
dying under the weight of gold diamonds n rings…

as my darker side is wakening
with the pills which i grind..
here i am suffering from crimes of the mind…

my brain is gettin criminalised..
as i set up the the holocaust infrastructure..
my thoughts gettin demonised
as the world is getting fractured

only thing i care is killing ppl as i move..
like i am dancin on the lucifer’s evil groove..
so possessed i am with shooting ppl on the head..
like a muslim instructed to fight a holy jehad

i feel so cold wen a AK i hold..
i walk through a bullet storm ..
like a untold saga i unfold,
poppin ‘ em haters nd burn holes in there hearts like a crater

my eyes are scarlet red..
vision blurred with blood..
as i stab him without mercy
he falls with a thud,

as my darker side is wakening
with the pills which i grind..
here i am suffering from crimes of the mind…

as the hallucination wears out.
and my senses rise..
i find myself covered in blood..
nd i hear muffled sound of cries